it's a hard love to sit still for
it's a hard love to break away from
i want to dance around the world with you
discuss the tiniest nuances of life
tucked under a white cotton blanket fort
i want to taste strawberries on your fingertips
i want to --

i want to slam my head into shower doors
i want to cry and scream and claw
i want to exorsize these demons
i want to grab you and look deep in your eyes
i want you to see the sedation of my soul
i must maintain to compose this calm

tranquilized
to dispel the traumatized
a lion bedding with the gazelle
locked behind glass
deep in the dankest zoo
i pace and i fight this frenzy and i --

it's a hard love to maintain
because it won't let go
it's a hard love to sing for
it's become my supper, my salvation




ugh.... to be continued when i can actually WRITE again....