photosynthesis

the bleeding has stopped
i am clotted and bandaged

i have put the lava back in the volcano
i have contained the hurricane in a can

in the moment it felt free and beautiful
to cry on your shoulder, to open a vein

my voice cracked, i wanted to beat you bruised
it's no secret why i turned off all the lights, the tv

how can two people inches apart
feel hundreds of miles away?

the apartment still, fishtank bubbling softly
broken refrigerator roaring, frosting, defrost

and me whimpering and clutching
begging you to let me in
then begging you to let me out

and me simmering and worn
begging you to let me go
then begging you to hold me tight

i am lunar, i am tides
i can't help the way i ravage seashores

you are solar, you are periodic and predictable
perhaps concealed by cloud, by storm
but still there, steady, waiting

i rise and writhe, i disappear and shine
i am phases, i am reflected photons
i rule the night, dwarf further stars

and sometimes, just sometimes
i am faded and soft and white in your day
demanding your light
and distracting your photosynthesis